Uncertainty within doubt

Ambushed by thorns of life, my resistance became indefinitely strong. Leaving from one side to the other in a close room of vacuum. Moving up and down, dwelling in the past not moving forward as hopeless as I am. Might not be able to bloom in the early eye of morning sun, I turned into a black rose, waiting to be picked up. Refusing to change the colour, I took another path without restriction. Leading to another endless road of fire. Lightless and lifeless as always, faintly moving towards the door of hope. Opening up, leaving only a torn piece of a petal. Lying down there - black and sorrowful. A heart which is filled with dirt is not the mood of life, it is just another junk within the blackhole absorbing every single thing into just one hole, letting nothing go, as evil as it seems, no one know what lies within. There is blood bath within a hole of pikes, letting no fish alive within the pool. Hopefully, it is another story of misery with no intention. Suffocating from the facts of life, I manage to find my supply of air.

1.20pm 20 September 2008

Fantasy or reality or in transition?

Should it be counted as a desired feeling or as an unwanted feeling? It seems disturbing however it brings little spark into my life. Wondering if discarding it will be a tough task or rather a torturing task to perform. Not knowing, afraid to move from that stationary post. Standing there stranded within the small cubical called hope. Praying hard that something will come up in the end of it. But, the distance seems very far from over, leading to more obstacles. Moving backwards step by step, refusing to accept reality, running to an open path - fantasy. As the warp absorbs me through another dimension without restrictions, providing every single wish of mine - dream. Pushing things closer together seem to be tearing apart from the real thing. Inability to have faith in myself, I pushed myself closer to the cliff, just a movement away from falling off. A hand was reached out, it was not the right but it was the left hand - sweet and gentle. Turning away, plunged into the sea I did. Feeling lost for a few days in my disturbed thoughts, without fire, suddenly it came the fire. Realising that illusions built up are just merely illusions and nothing more. Falling into the black pit I did once, but this time I am painting my cardboard world white, stainless whiter than even a pure soul. Hopefully, pulling off the same trick over and over again. Repeating does not make it a lesson through the thick skull of mine.

7.28pm 19 September 2008

Interesting...

Today....

This morning when I was reading...I found a remarkable statement that stands out..

Ahmad(BN) says,

"as the chinese were only immigrants it was impossible to achieve equal rights amonst races" - The Star N14 1 September 2008

12.51pm 1 September 2008

(-\/-)

Today........

"One day, little by little, little by little"

3.04pm 31 August 2008

Things which is so far from reach seems closer with chasing

Today, I had a terrible headache and my head swirls and spins around making me feel like puking.

Anyways, from now onwards I shall write something motivational more often to keep this blog alive...hehe...

I was wondering, things which are beyond your reach is not simply things which you cannot achieve, it just dreams which you chase or a goal which you chase after and yet at a long duration of time, still fail to get it. That does not prove that there is no chance in getting the wants in your life. So, drag yourself a bit more, rush a bit more, stretch a bit more to reach for the things that you wanted so much in your life regardless of whatever it is as long as its a good dream. haha. As long as you continue chasing, the dream will get closer meaning chances of getting it becomes higher. So do not give up in whichever dream chased after, just continue to proceed until the red light had been put up. Red light indicates stop, so make sure things which are done to a certain limit or extent where it should not be continued or there should be dire consequences. In that case, chase after another goal of yours. Things are to be done in wise manner not in a bull manner.

Quote, "Chasing dreams just gets you closer to achiving your goals "

11.36pm 29 August 2008

Ideas...

Hrm. I was wondering to myself if there should be any important thing in life, I guess there are. In this wonderful world pasted with colourful bank notes is making people crazy over pieces of paper around them. Not to mention, they fight and crawl for the pieces of printed paper. Seems like I am among the participant too. I was wondering to myself what must be done to improve myself each day before I go to sleep.Not knowing if tomorrow is a better day, I still place my bet on myself saying that tomorrow there will be a better me. Thinking positively, nothing gone wrong so far but I believe in elevation. I want a new bright step across the border, taking the sight seeing from across, above, side by side and etc. Seems like the challenge is on and ideas have to flow in order for me to at least get a few pieces of the colourful paper. If there should be any bright assistance that you can provide me with, kindly leave a comment or at the message box. Thank you.

2.07am 27 August 2008

FOOD TRIP..coming up next.. LOL...

YO people.. I just came back from the FOOD TRIP with my OTHER 24 buddies who tagged along. We ate at various places around KL. Feeling so DAMN FULL makes me feel so damn great.....Spending so much on food just makes me feel that the money was well spent. I shall elaborate more some other time in my next upcoming post as I am too tired to proceed on today. Sorry for the delay...Goodbye people. ENJOY!!!

11.08pm 22 August 2008