Justice to injustice?

I am speechless learning from hardship from those foreign workers over at my parents working place. I felt pity and at the same time felt a bit of anger. Seeing them suffering by eating such simple meal each day without feeling the boredom of having the similar menu each day. Having varieties of food each day I consider myself very fortunate.

Not only recent but perhaps it had became a norm in our community. This terribly tears me down to the bottom of the very core of my heart learning that police are actually legal armed gangster who works for the government. Anywhere in the world, I guess people do agree. Legal armed gangster, highway robbers and the list goes on and on.

In real life, highway where most business people are rushing to work just to pay tax to help to enable the government to move in the economical area each day without a choice. Having sacrifice such ordeal, the "highway robbers" will tend to put up speed trap and all sorts of bull shit trying to impose fine on those hard workers. This is nonsense. Terribly wrong. Those people are working so hard trying to pay some tax so they can pay some petty cash for the robbers and on top of that they tend to rob yet again. Justice is far from beginning ever since the appearance of the previous prophet.

Devilish as they are, they can change their occupation to be a legal armed gangster in some countries. In night time, they tend to hang around the industrial area where there are hostel for those foreign workers. Inable to fight in a foreign country, the foreigners are unable to tussle against the "allmighty LEGAL criminals". Let me enlighten you with real life experience. From seeing the situation the foreign workers are I am already so badly hurt, and yet the legal armed gangsters trying to blackmail and indirectly ROB them for SOME OF THEIR SAVINGS - RM10. Yea that will make a legal armed gangster sooo RICH. Being able to live in such "heavenly space" due to the "richness", they feel contented with such shameful act. Shameful indeed for me to even not notice them around. Feeling insecure in such places such that the law enforcers are doing unlawfully acts.

Those brainless morons have tiny bits left of their saint side so I can't quite blame them. Believe it or not, the previous time, their bicycles were stolen by a policeman's son. To make things worst, its the head of the police squad in that area. How can I make a report? Will he be a father or a law enforcer at that point of time? Terribly dissapointed with their low-life and disgusting actions. Shameful as I am, I have to walk around with a black plastic bag knowing of the feeling of afraid that such shame can humiliate my image in other countries internationally.

10.02pm 23 December 2008

Ex President -OR- Mr. President?

What?! President?! It is either some Malaysians are living back in the past or they are intelectually challenged.

Recently, perhaps I can say yesterday (5/12/2008), when I was watching the Bill Clinton's speech in KLCC through Astro Awani Channel, it was reported that he is "still" president.

Leaving the stage after his meaningful and powerful speech which somehow make lots of sense (hopefully some other people understand his speech well enough). Immediately, without hesitation, the emcee announced, "Thank you Mr. President for your speech". As part of the society, I felt kinda embarass once again having fellow compatriots who has low general knowledge or perhaps someone teleported her from the past or something...

That's not it. After that, the newscaster, once again degrade my standard of general knowledge by informing me by reinstating that Bill Clinton is the President. I wonder how is he the president in any ways. Is it me who is living ahead of time or are those people intelectually challenged in some ways, kindly advice my "not-so-wise" mind.

12.07am 6 December 2008

Fight, war, whatever, it is just pure "stupidism"

It is very interesting and very educational for students and younger adults to view the debate back in the Parlimen of my country. Identifying professionals and "retarded" people are easy to identify. By just using normal words with normal tone, points will be conveyed clearly. Unfortunately, there are some wild beast up there selected by blinded people who shouts out their opinion hoping that they are in the right position. Unfortunately again, by shouting louder does not allow better grade of understanding. It will just make it harder for me to listen to whatever bullshit or points which he might want to convey. As part of the society of my country, irrespestive of whichever political group, I for once felt the terrible shame which had been cursed upon me. Doesn't matter to me who and what you are. A human is a human. For example, a handphone same model but they are different in terms of colour but in terms of function, they are still similar (maybe there are exceptions). Similar to us, judging by race is really really not a fair thing to do. It is not the citizens that are at fault by right. Everyone live in harmony. It takes only one or two skunks to make matter worst. I am speaking of those who are so called by themselves, "leaders". Leaders are supposed to lead and organise his team of people. Failure to do so, the "leader" is not a capable leader. In the business world, you think you are the leader in some field but other people think otherwise. So, what do you think? It means that what you think doesn't matter, it is the crowd that judge you whether you are right or wrong. Failure to lead is same as failure to think logically and rationally. Failure to do so is due to the education background. Poor educational background posses poor ability to lead. Doesn't matter the educational is formal or informal, as long as learning is in progress. Failure to do so will lead to ancient caveman attitude. Blindly, taking a leader to lead democratically means the citizens are equally blind. So, the blind will lead the blind. All ends up in the "grave". So, failure to vote for the right person is the failure of oneself being tortured today. So, who is at fault? No one but the citizens.

9.29pm 4 December 2008

"Talk the talk", but can I "Walk the walk"?

I never thought learning practical stuffs can make you feel so tired and exhausted (even you are earning money). Man, it is crazy. Draining my brain juice. Half way through the day, I feel like colapsing on my bed. Trust me working is not as easy as I think it should be. I wonder how am I going to cope in the near future with my big fantastic dreams. I hope my motivation and spirit will once again run wild in my blood. Once again...Hopefully.... My determination and drive for excellence had just died off not too long ago. I wonder where had it been. Perhaps, I have been lamenting on non-important matters. I attend to the less priority things in life which can be postphoned to some other time for evaluation. Sadly, I continue to drag my feet on the drain of laziness. Falling in with no way out. Terribly dissappointed with myself. I feel I need to be better in many ways. It is the ME against the ME. Another bothersome matter which had me thinking a while now. To go with the drive or to stay back and relax. I am not too sure myself. I have poor drive. How can I achieve so much with such attitude and so little time left. Perhaps, I need to stop thinking on theories and act practically. I Need A Desperate Change!!

11.45pm 3 December 2008

Moving abouts

Mountains over mountains are my thoughts of things at this point of this. Having alternate solutions for each problem. Viewing things in large perspective is a good thing for overall. It will enable the large overview of the situation.

Moving in circles is what I did as a beginner. As a more experienced person, I shall apply what I have learnt wisely.

1.06 29 November 2008

TERRORISM IS TERRORISING THE WORLD, THIS MUST STOP!!

This is sad. The world is changing so drastically. Terrorists are everywhere. If not controlled, this will be worst. By naming terrorism, people will zoom in into the Muslims brotherhood which is the wrong point to do. This is not correct. Only it takes a few exremist to spoil the good name. Removing this terrorist society in the world is the only choice most people have. Not pointing fingers, I stand here as a fair person with reasonable thinking saying that it is unjustifiable killing innocent people without a second thought. Although requesting for something, it is totally unreasonable to kill in order to instill fear. Instead, hatred will fill up the spot. It is horrible seeing blood shed all over. What is becoming to this world of people. Instead of terrorism, why not go ahead and think of someting positive to increase our quality of life. Perhaps, planting more plants. Reason why war and fighting happen around us is due to a few human factors which is unavoidable.

Firstly, human greed is the destruction of the human kind. With greed, hatred and jealousy can be generated. For example, a greedy person managed to get on his way to success making it big in business world. The poors will envy and jealous. Jealousy will turn to hatred in a short turn of table. This will instigate those lower income people to have hatred towards the greedy people. Then, from here, thieving, robbery and even murder in order to get money and valuables are part of the consequences faced.

Secondly, human fear is the second most contagious disease. By fearing, naturally human will build up their defensive side. This will lead to defensive fighting. Okay..Here comes the part where the human mind trick us into thinking, " I should make a move for my own security before the other party does anything". To make things worst, the other party will think of the same thing. Together they will build defensive side as well as offensive side on each sides. This will lead to terrible bloodsheds.

Thirdly, irresponsibility is also part of the criteria causing chaos around. It is derived from greed. By being irresponsible, it will lead into dishonesty. Then again, from all this negative elements certain twisted parties will make a move in doing stuffs as their own community pleased and try to implement it onto the others who are not their kind of people. This enforcement will aggitate the people who have not show their fangs. Causing such disturbance, a clash of thought will surface and this will then again lead to another war.

Seeing poor and innocent people die in front of my very eyes in my generation, I felt terribly hurt. I am not a person who select people by their race or religion. I am a very fair person who I believe I want to bring peace to this world without hurting anyone. Seems far from impossible from your eyes. But from mine, it is just the beginning of the peace agenda for the world.

MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES FOR THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED IN THE MUMBAI TERRORIST ASSAULT. I SHALL SHARE MY INFINITE HAPPINESS WITH THOSE WHO ARE SADDENED AND SHALL LEAVE ALL SADNESS TO ME AS I CAN HELP TO DISPOSE THOSE UNWANTED FEELINGS. BLESS ALL OF YOU.

12.33pm 29 November 2008

A goal which is never reaching

Just another sight from far away, just like how it should be. Another torture but another enlightenment. Removing the falseness will bring back tranquility. Breezey noon, just another gaze at the moon, make it felt like just another mansoon, swirling the stir of life changing the cycle by a little. Moving the pace from time to time. Just a wish of best of luck and be hopeful which is not useful, another concern which doesn't make the feeling feel cheerful, it is so painful.

10.21pm 26 November 2008

Running with tap water

Just an impatient attempt to move a foot forward leaving me in confusion
once again. Letting go of simplicity in this life relieves the burden
that I may had carried or found by myself. Perhaps I just lost sight of
my goal since my main aim had been clouded by a thousand thoughts
sighing all the time. I did not learn my lesson well enough since I have
been foolishly repeating the similar events over and over again causing
internal harm to myself. Suppose I am already back in my small empty
shed within me, what should I do to proceed in success. In my mind,
still screaming real loud hoping in reaching its destination which was
not even there in the first place. Misfiring my true sight of my
objective is the main failure in my life so far. I blame myself for
being weak to temptations. I been this way all this life. Enjoying was
just not a real part of it. I might be enjoying but it has not reached
the maximum limit since there is no one little thing which excites me up
to 100% just yet. Hoping to look for it, i dwell upon the empty hut for
a very long duration. Another sigh came along, just another stranger
which I look up upon again, hoping for not to repeat but failure to do
so again, I fall into the dark hole of absorption. Being led into the
failure route, I wanted to be stronger to take another turn to become
someone much different. Instead of taking weaknesses as a weakness,
should I try harder to think positively until the weaknesses is well
hidden deep within me. Hopefully, to be discovered it would not be that
simple. It is just for you. Just for you to know sometimes but not all
the time. Letting go of this shattered dream, I am now at lost once
again.

10.02pm 26 November 2008

So...Blur

Nothing much to blog about these days except the recent food trip which I had. Kinda tired trying to minimize input and maximize output from my body system. This is hectic. I really hope I can endure through all this. All this for a reason. Reason which is obvious. Obvious which is unseen. Unseen because its not clear. Not clear as I refuse to do so. So, it shall just be like that.

11.09pm 23 November 2008

Let's calculate...

Alright, here we are calculating the petroluem pricing that is supposed to be. Perhaps, we are cheated in some ways or they are soooo bad in maths even with a simple calculator, they can't get the maths right.

Recent price of petroleum per barrel = USD 55.00 [averaged from max and min from website]
Recent conversion : USD1.00 = RM3.60

Here, its simple for those who had calculated wrongly, let me guide you carefully incase you get lost again..

Calculating for petroleum price per barrel (RM) = 55 X 3.6 = RM 198.00 [the 'x' is multiply]

For Each Barrel there are 159 Litres

To calculate for the price per litre = 198/159 = RM 1.2453/L [the'/' is divide]

Assume production cost and other incured cost per litre = RM 0.32/L

Total cost = RM 1.25 + RM 0.32 = RM 1.57/L

Let's say the petrol station wants to earn Rm 0.03/L,

Total price = RM 1.57 + RM 0.03 = RM1.60/L

And guess what, we are paying RM 2.00/L

How stupid can we be to be fooled by simple mathematics?

Oh hold on, subsidies....I wonder..... I guess subsidies is around -RM0.40/L [there is a negative]

I wonder where that go to....

The right way should be around RM 1.60 - - - - - - [minus minus minus...etc]

But it isn't that way...I wonder why. Such poor maths calculation. Perhaps they should engage pre-schoolers to do the MATHS.

RM 0.40........I can buy 2 kuih back in some old towns.... Man....

So, tell me...does my calculation make sense?

Reference :
1) Conversion - http://www.xe.com/ucc/convert.cgi [Date accessed 18 Nov 2008]
2) Price per Barrel of oil - http://www.swivel.com/data_columns/show/1946 [Date accessed 18 Nov 2008]

7.51pm 18 November 2008

Work Work

Finally, industrial training..Long awaited...the torture has finally came. I knew I have to do it one way or the other, having weird new experiences are good for knowledge enhancement however I guess it is not a good thing if you are putting your life on the line. XD. Anyways, I am pretty tired. So, sorry guys won't be able to hang out much...Only weekends. See you around. Btw jus wanna say...I AM BACK!!! =D

8.24pm 17 November 2008

I am finally awake from my fantasy world

For those of you who still wants to enjoy your holiday, I shall kindly advice you not to read this post.

My holidays came crumbling down the stairs hearing an unbarable strike of thundering loudness from my msn alert system. Reading it, it says,

"Hey fluids marks out d. You wan you can ask kenny for it. I heard..."
"Chemical average 58%, Mechanical average 56% and 20% failure"

Down with all my emotions. I went totally low, sinking to the bottom of the ground of my heart hitting them so hard, couldn't help burying myself under them.

The next day, another strike came along, seeing the message written as,

"I heard there are only 7HDs, 2Ds, 20+Cs and the rest passes and fails"

I WENT OMG..CAN THIS BE POSSIBLE...scaring the hell out of myself. What can I do I say, what's done is done. I can't revert my doings. I can only regret if I want to. But I rather channel my energy to do my very best for things that comes into my way at this point of time and move on with whatever it is.. It is reality I am facing no longer my fantasy world.

I have something to say,

"Dear world, I am finally awake from my long long slumber. I shall conquer this fear with my might and power and leave no chance of failure from this point onwards"

11.16pm 15 November 2008

Facing the truth

Facing facts of life is similar to facing the most challenging path in life. I guess that helps us to develop further into something dissimilar to any of our encounters. Some facts are meant to be hidden although it is known. It is tough avoiding at times. Perhaps its good to just let them all out. However, the consequences that remains in the head is something that is miserable which refuses the mouth to spill out what you have in mind. Hardly a challenge in life if there is no risk taking. However, things may seem to be in different targeted angles, varies in variety, mixing complicatedly blending into the precious carvings which you have in mind and soul. Seems like the road of satisfaction sure has a line of obstacles that need to be faced. Oh man....dear dear...

5.36pm 5 November 2008

Cross paths

A challenging path indeed will be a choice of mine. But managing the conditions that I am on the way in making out perfectly from the path is a bit of trouble at this point of time. I am such a weak person after all...

9.04am 2 November 2008

4 seasons of emotion

A wake of spring,
Moment of wondering,
Can't stop worrying,
Will soon be covering.

Just like passing summer,
Another path to slumber,
Unlike running number,
Just another feather.

In the eve of autumn,
Lies a tear drop within,
Always there in isolation,
Broken like no return.

Far from winter,
Turning on the heater,
Strong without quiver,
Just an emotion breaker.

12.32am 1 November 2008

Haha?

8.26am 28 October 2008

Wrongly wired?

This system is highly wired. Unsure of which leads to which, you tell me. Is short circuit possible in such a case? If they aren't insulated and they are viewed from 1-D orientation.

9.37am 26 October 2008

My life is such a fairy tale

Some wise guy came up to me telling me this in my dream last night. Perhaps I was knocked unconscious and was told so much which I am already knowing and not practicing. I am still living a lie.


Thinking is done by your brain and not by your emotions.


Thinking alone won't help you unless you put some emotions into it or else people might mark you as cold blooded.


Feeling secure is a feeling of being great but insecure makes you like falling apart so, do not hope for too much in life, just wish simple and live simple and everything will be smooth going.


A trouble comes along the path which lies ahead of you and you are seeking an escape? No, go ahead and move along and FACE it. Perhaps there are a few valuable lessons needed to be learnt from there.


Who knows what you can do when your emotions are overpowering you which make everything you do is made possible.


I wonder if there is a sudden surge in high bi-electric voltage when your emotions are running high.


Turning emotional is not about being an outcast in society but turning into more understanding of yourself.


"In short, what you are doing is what you are. There is no such thing as an inner self of you. Even there is, your current self is doing a good job keeping him there. So, be happy about things are now and move along a path which was created by you. Don't think of it as fate but as what you want and what it is supposed to be in your mind. Fate is just another reason to escape from reality. You should be wise enough to be a realist and remove all those negative thoughts from your mind. You are just hiding them. It is a matter of time before you can let them all out."



9.22am 26 October 2008

The path

The path I follow. You were not part of it. Blue drops are tried to be avoided. But together it will be the blue circle in life. As dark as it may seem, it will never be as red as when you are alone. To be known just yet. A dark path of being happy.

8.56am 26 October 2008

Anything can be done.

Facing papers after papers is not a problem but facing them with the need of tremendous amount of energy need to be spent on them which is the tricky part. Just to tell myself a few things,

1) I wont be going down!!

2) I can DO IT!!

3) Impossible - I "M" POSSIBLE!!

4) Its not that I can do IT but I AM DOING IT and ACING IT..

5) Just hang on...its a bit more till the end of the tunnel.

Colours of life

It is random and I have no idea why is this picture here but it is just here...Perhaps its by fate.

12.04am 25 October 2008

A mysterious conversation

Mind - Hey, I can feel the same torture as you.

Heart - Well, I guess we share the same pain since we are together as always ever since the creation.

Mind - Perhaps, you should learn how to express yourself and let go.

Heart - I was hoping that would be the key to all answers. Unfortunately, the only way to translate this into words is
through feelings as it is hard to express using myself alone.

Mind - Perhaps there is someone who can really help you out in this.

*Mind brought his friend, Mouth*

Mouth - You called me?

Mind - Yea yea... So would you like to help me out with the problem which our entire system is facing?

Mouth - Sure no problem.

Mind - I guess this friend of mine would be able to help you out with expressing in words.

*Mouth intepreted in term of words*

Mouth - This is difficult. Perhaps, I can't really help out.

Heart - Why not?

Mouth - You want to me to put it in words but something kept me resisting to say it out.

Mind - Who?!

Mouth - You!

Mind - What?! Me?

Mouth - Yea. You might not realised, but I can feel it. Both of you are conflicting each other.

Mind & Heart - What should we do now?

Mouth - You two choose. Both should come up with a conclusion and act upon it.

Mind & Heart - I guess that is the only route out.

*Seconds....Minutes....Hours...Days....Weeks....Months....Years......Silent it remained*

THE END

11.17pm 24 October 2008

Is action still louder than words?

It is something that is bothering me always....and I mean it always. Being able to do certain things to a certain limit is a bit frustrating as you felt tied up to a high density metal ball. It is not fun if you can't spend your energy to fill up someone's life with joy - either you and anyone around you.

If it is something in mind, have you need to say it out of needless to? Confused? Puzzled? Mixed feelings? Can't decide? Well, I guess things are just like that if things are not said. I am not sure if the statement " action speaks louder than words " works anymore in this kind of situation. Things are being done, but seems that it is not loud enough until being told. Perhaps human had already lost their sense of interpreting actions into words since most of the stuffs these days are swallowed down just by reading and studying. No longer analytical. Sadly. Can't be helped.

I do not know but expressing oneself is an important thing in life I believe. Failure to express will lead to the growth of frustration. That is the number one reason why our parents want us to pick up a language well enough for us to express ourself. Perhaps having more languages do help. Complicated crap. Deciding on something. Its just like a life and death thing everytime when you are given a chance to decide. This is really something important. Making decision. Important .... I guess...

11.57am 23 October 2008

I have no idea.

I have no idea what the hell is this but I am totally screwed...

11.24am 19 October 2008

Maths O.o

If any of you guys or gals out there wondering what the hell is MATHS B, well let me enlighten you with this illustration of mine as shown below :

WELL, TAAAADDAAAAAA!!!!!

9.57am 19 October 2008

So.........

I am having so much troubles these days. Why?

MATHS B

I feel so stress everytime just trying to imagine numbers. I am getting afraid of numbers. Damn.

So, What is it that you see? I have no idea why I do all these crap but I just simply do it. Its and art, a design, a stress relieving method perhaps. I am soooo dying soon....Terrible life....

8.52am 19 October 2008

HOPE bottles

Here are four bottles of HOPE. It is represented with 4 different bottles.



The HOPE can be represented as :

Hurdles
Obstacles
Problems
Entanglements

Wondering why are those initials stated so negatively. Allow me to explain.

Firstly,

Obtain 4 seperate bottles. Colour them to your desired colour. Make sure there are with caps.

Secondly,

Release your problems which troubles you or whichever thing which causes the worry and sadness or any other feelings which causes indefinate suffering to yourself by putting wishing stone into the capped bottle.

*Wishing stone - Selected pebble meant for you to keep your worries using your imagination*

Thirdly,

Throw it somewhere far away ensuring that it does not get back to you again

Fourthly,

Motivation should come as part of the bonus. For each negative point which is "thrown" away from your emotions and mind, you should find another reason to be happy about. Find it. I am sure you can find it. Just do things that makes you happy. Perhaps focus on some kind of sports and excel in it or maybe focus on your studies like a nerd. Depending on individuals.

Continue doing this by having seperate sets of bottles. Different batches. Perhaps my explaination is not good enough for your understanding. I can't provide a thorough and definate explaination to this but I can provide some hints on how this works. Hopefully, it will work this time.

^I saw this crap back in my dream world, I managed to find them nicely bottled up next to the sandy area covered with nice sand with tremendous amount of water on that day.I am confused still.^

1.34am 19 October 2008

Much more about me (revealed)

I just suddenly felt that I am too childish and I still hate myself.
Perhaps I am yet to discover myself in whichever way which can make me
feel contented. Perhaps I am just as useless as I think I am. Perhaps
the thinking had already taken over the best out of me and making me
feel this way and worst BE this way.

Thinking back to the past which I had once been looking into so
carefully previously, it is seen that many things which had happened.
Thinking again. I am no longer as useful as before. I am unable to do as
many stuffs which I once done. Where had all the motivation gone to?

Thinking back again. Seeing me learning a lot of knowledge in such a
short period of time. I still do not understand why am I wasting time
not doing anything. Knowledge is to be gain by effort. I really do
admire people who has that capabilities. I still do not know why am I
not YEARNING FOR IT and NOT WANTING IT. Deep inside I want it however my
mind tells me to slow down as I can get it without effort. I hate that
for myself. I hate that feeling. I want to make things happen with my
own effort. My own thoughts. My own ideas. My originality. Darn time is
passing me by as I type. Wasting again. What can be done? Perhaps I
should try to be glad that I am breathing till this point of time.

I just hate myself. Hating so hard that I am losing myself. Making
things so difficult for myself when everything is actually easy.
Thinking too much just make me feel a bit backwards. I do not want to
fall that badly this time. I am putting effort to making things work.
Why am I so lazy? Why can't I be the more hardworking person? I cannot
end like this. My parents will be so disappointed for the fact that I am
trying my best ONLY at the very last minute. Not from the beginning. How
long can I lie to myself? Tell me...How LONG?!!

I just kept wondering again. Wondering endlessly into the deep path
which had many split paths which leads me to confusion. The problem is
until this moment in time, I felt I have not know enough to stand on my
own. People are getting ready for the battle. I am just still learning
how to enter the battle field. Things are getting worst from what I can
see in mind. Why do I have such ability to see into the near future but
I am unable to express them out. Perhaps my ideas was not supported by
the knowledge which I am having up to this point of time.

I still hate myself. I quit learning hard stuffs when I was young. I am
not regreting. Hoping to pick them up slowly. I need to perform super
human task from now onwards. I can no longer sit back and relax and
enjoy a normal relaxable life. Why must this be? Why things that I
always yearn for always been so close this time and leaving me NOW? No
longer part of the grasp of my hand. Already gone. Far gone.

I am lost. Just so lost. Hoping to find a short path out from the
miserable maze. I am yet to find the perfect exit yet. I am yet to find any to be honest. So, what should I be doing now? What should I be DOING NOW?! You tell me. I can no longer hold back and tell myself. I am falling apart...breaking apart..I am just another pretender which have this double face. Facing people outside as a normal person. Looking back at myself from the inside. That is not really me. I do believe I can do better than this. I am just suffering so much that I felt like giving up this chance in life.

Miserable as it is. I just can't stop typing so much trash here. Perhaps I am already too tired and sick of lying to myself for such a long time. Faking things...it is so fake. I am not me..How can the perfect me show himself. Perhaps not perfect enough. I know this I know that, but seems that I did not put them in practical practice. It is as good as being nothing of those that I have in mind. Heart says want to go but physically my ass will put me down the chair and make it refuses to move.

Tired, sickening, fattening...I am at lost. Losing most of anything which includes nearly everything. Gosh

1.24pm 18 October 2008

Happy Birthday Girls! (Is this the final gathering?) T.T

Hey hey hey.. Been a while since I last step foot here to this blog. This is something I got yesterday. It is....a Birthdaysssss Party. October is finally here...and yea I feel older. But to be honest, I am still 19 today although I had the "bday party" cause mine is not here yet. YESH!!! I am YOUNG..hahaha..Well, it all started.... when I did not know how it started. I guess it so happen to be there. Birthdays are miracles so it does not require much explaination.

A picture of 3 October Babies...Oooo....

Gosh 2 pretty gals....*blush* haha....

Then, just before the end of the party, we imitated a few poses by our yet very cool KH. haha....First we started off by taking a DEEEEEEEP Breathe and we let it out by pushing forward our hand and pretend not to look at the camera.

There you go......*release breathing*....Cool enough?

Here there is more, a second imitation, the 7 right below your mouth, its simple, just put your hand forward from the first position above and then pull it back close to your mouth. MAKE SURE that you cover a part of your mouth when doing it.

And here you go again.....*As cool as it seems it can be*...You know what? .. My room suddenly feel a bit chilly now...hahahahah....

Up next, my buddies from the first day we set foot into Monash till forever hahaha...So emo man and on top of that I really do not know why all of us in black except one...It makes me wonder...Hrm...on top of that it is PINK...gosh.....XD

TCY, FJH,YWY,KOWL,KCY,SYSH

Hey hey hey...the show is not in the middle. The real show is next to the left hand side of the picture. Can't you notice the 3 CUTE people there...hahahaha...

Whats up people with that pose? haha....

At the end of a satisfying dinner will always ended up with a long list of bill which then make us regret for what we had eaten. Gosh oh gosh...LOOK AT THE PRICE...OMG..

Come come ...let me help you...don't strain your eyes too much =D it is stated there "RM581.65"

And finally, the finale.....I have no idea why but I find this picture totally out of the world....XD

Hey thats all folks, take my finger and go..."Take it and go" *RP slang, hahahahaha

Sorry but to break it but this is the last party before exam....AWWWW....

See you guys around in future and all the best...

9.22am 18 October 2008

* This is a special dedication to Hui Hui and Bao Li for their birthday. Happy birthday gals =D. Hope you girls enjoy it.

Sketches 3

Just someting randomly done again when I have some free time in between my breaks



Funny dream these days, been dreaming a lot

What can I say, that's the stuff I see at times, perhaps most of the time

Numbers, can you identify them? haha..

It took me quite some time to put up these pictures. Damn.

12.28am 13 October 2008

Sketches 2

These pictures are randomly drawn and by the feelings at the spur of the moment.

What the hell...TCY fault o.O

8.01am 6 October 2008

Untitled

Today left :

20 days =D

Leaving the past behind to start anew as I had forgotten what was it like to be previously.

1.12pm 4 October 2008

Just a reminder

Oh fellow dearest Chemical Students,

Welcome to the BLOG, yea you got that right...... "THE BLOG"..

HAHA

OKAY ... Here is the important announcement for today,

21 days left

For a magic to happen? LOL..Enjoy =D

6.20pm 3 October 2008

Designs

Here is something that I designed when I was SOOOOOO free during the holidays. Enjoy =D.

I think I just got a job as a designer for T-shirt. Contact me if you need someone to design something. What you see is only the tip of the ice berg..HAHA...

5.53pm 3 October 2008

Increased in gravity?

Again another dream. The gravity is getting stronger and stronger within our earth system. Is it cause the increase of temperature? Or is it cause of increase of global warming? Might sound stupid but I just put what I have in my dream. The usage of fossil fuels and other component made from solid and liquid within our earth will eventually make it into gas components. Good example, our daily petrol. Having increased numbers of molecules within the air will increase the pressure in the air. Increase in pressure leads to increase in temperature which I believe to increase the gravitational pull somehow. I do not know how. Don't ask me. It is my dream. I just wish to share with everyone around me. Launching objects out of orbit will reduce the gravity as less mass within the control volume (our earth), reducing the mass, reducing pressure, reducing temperature and thus reducing gravity. So the constant 9.81 above sea level MIGHT not be valid any longer..OMG what a dream...

9.27pm 2 October 2008

Time is moving faster

As years going by, we are moving faster and faster. Is it a feeling or is it a real thing? Thinking again, the universe is expanding thus, somehow time is going faster and faster. Everyday, waking up to a new day looking at my digital clock. Seems like there is a time lag from time to time or should i say from day to day. A few seconds does not hurt. But things are going oddly these days. This may due to certain physics theory which I am not well versed in. Its just a dream. Perhaps its just my dream. Perhaps, equation to calculate the end of the world is just within me which I did not realised. HAHA...I am crazy

9.22pm 2 October 2008

I guess that is the only way

Seems like writing is the only solution of letting go of the frustration. Seems so near within reach but so far within range. How to reach for somethin which is so beyond you? Is it a challenge or is it a thrill? Is it on purpose or is it destined to be? Ignored I was. Indicated I was. Indirected meaning was given. Yet, the hope was still there. Moving forward in a slow pace. Slowly reaching for it. Yet again, its still too far from reach. What to do? What to reach for? Is there a logical purpose for it? Doesn't seem like there is any. But the guess is in this field of destiny and fate, there is nothing logical. Its all about the emotions. That is why emotion without a thought. Logical or not, act with feelings will simply get into trouble. Wonderful that our body system was created so perfectly and yet feelings is out of control of the creator. It is no longer a logical world. Its just another world filled with feeling of wanting more. Greed is towards the destruction of men.

7.54pm 28 September 2008

Just another sitting moment

Just another moment of complications which lead to a different scenes in life. Living within the empty box of spirituality giving out signs of letting go. Thinking over what was thought at that moment, letting out all frustrations and anger over things that does not belong. Impossible is the sign of mind but the body seems encouraged to move on. Indefinate of the path taken, once again the sea of sorrowness cloud the sky of the healthy thinking. Just a matter of thank you gives out a sign feeling uncomfortable within the very own boundary. What else to do other than seek refuge and run and hide? Only option available is either to talk to the wall of hope or just plunge down the pillar of hope and never see it again. Seems like the wish is far from being reality as fantasy managed to claw upon the healthy mind. Emptiness was felt all away without even a glimpse happiness within that. But when it is coming to an end, it was always a suspense following one path to the other. Interesting thrill, journey, experience but seems like the mind is getting bored of it as letting go was the only thing that it can do so far...for now. It is becoming a plant without water.
6.47pm 27 September 2008

Uncertainty within doubt

Ambushed by thorns of life, my resistance became indefinitely strong. Leaving from one side to the other in a close room of vacuum. Moving up and down, dwelling in the past not moving forward as hopeless as I am. Might not be able to bloom in the early eye of morning sun, I turned into a black rose, waiting to be picked up. Refusing to change the colour, I took another path without restriction. Leading to another endless road of fire. Lightless and lifeless as always, faintly moving towards the door of hope. Opening up, leaving only a torn piece of a petal. Lying down there - black and sorrowful. A heart which is filled with dirt is not the mood of life, it is just another junk within the blackhole absorbing every single thing into just one hole, letting nothing go, as evil as it seems, no one know what lies within. There is blood bath within a hole of pikes, letting no fish alive within the pool. Hopefully, it is another story of misery with no intention. Suffocating from the facts of life, I manage to find my supply of air.

1.20pm 20 September 2008

Fantasy or reality or in transition?

Should it be counted as a desired feeling or as an unwanted feeling? It seems disturbing however it brings little spark into my life. Wondering if discarding it will be a tough task or rather a torturing task to perform. Not knowing, afraid to move from that stationary post. Standing there stranded within the small cubical called hope. Praying hard that something will come up in the end of it. But, the distance seems very far from over, leading to more obstacles. Moving backwards step by step, refusing to accept reality, running to an open path - fantasy. As the warp absorbs me through another dimension without restrictions, providing every single wish of mine - dream. Pushing things closer together seem to be tearing apart from the real thing. Inability to have faith in myself, I pushed myself closer to the cliff, just a movement away from falling off. A hand was reached out, it was not the right but it was the left hand - sweet and gentle. Turning away, plunged into the sea I did. Feeling lost for a few days in my disturbed thoughts, without fire, suddenly it came the fire. Realising that illusions built up are just merely illusions and nothing more. Falling into the black pit I did once, but this time I am painting my cardboard world white, stainless whiter than even a pure soul. Hopefully, pulling off the same trick over and over again. Repeating does not make it a lesson through the thick skull of mine.

7.28pm 19 September 2008

Interesting...

Today....

This morning when I was reading...I found a remarkable statement that stands out..

Ahmad(BN) says,

"as the chinese were only immigrants it was impossible to achieve equal rights amonst races" - The Star N14 1 September 2008

12.51pm 1 September 2008

(-\/-)

Today........

"One day, little by little, little by little"

3.04pm 31 August 2008

Things which is so far from reach seems closer with chasing

Today, I had a terrible headache and my head swirls and spins around making me feel like puking.

Anyways, from now onwards I shall write something motivational more often to keep this blog alive...hehe...

I was wondering, things which are beyond your reach is not simply things which you cannot achieve, it just dreams which you chase or a goal which you chase after and yet at a long duration of time, still fail to get it. That does not prove that there is no chance in getting the wants in your life. So, drag yourself a bit more, rush a bit more, stretch a bit more to reach for the things that you wanted so much in your life regardless of whatever it is as long as its a good dream. haha. As long as you continue chasing, the dream will get closer meaning chances of getting it becomes higher. So do not give up in whichever dream chased after, just continue to proceed until the red light had been put up. Red light indicates stop, so make sure things which are done to a certain limit or extent where it should not be continued or there should be dire consequences. In that case, chase after another goal of yours. Things are to be done in wise manner not in a bull manner.

Quote, "Chasing dreams just gets you closer to achiving your goals "

11.36pm 29 August 2008

Ideas...

Hrm. I was wondering to myself if there should be any important thing in life, I guess there are. In this wonderful world pasted with colourful bank notes is making people crazy over pieces of paper around them. Not to mention, they fight and crawl for the pieces of printed paper. Seems like I am among the participant too. I was wondering to myself what must be done to improve myself each day before I go to sleep.Not knowing if tomorrow is a better day, I still place my bet on myself saying that tomorrow there will be a better me. Thinking positively, nothing gone wrong so far but I believe in elevation. I want a new bright step across the border, taking the sight seeing from across, above, side by side and etc. Seems like the challenge is on and ideas have to flow in order for me to at least get a few pieces of the colourful paper. If there should be any bright assistance that you can provide me with, kindly leave a comment or at the message box. Thank you.

2.07am 27 August 2008

FOOD TRIP..coming up next.. LOL...

YO people.. I just came back from the FOOD TRIP with my OTHER 24 buddies who tagged along. We ate at various places around KL. Feeling so DAMN FULL makes me feel so damn great.....Spending so much on food just makes me feel that the money was well spent. I shall elaborate more some other time in my next upcoming post as I am too tired to proceed on today. Sorry for the delay...Goodbye people. ENJOY!!!

11.08pm 22 August 2008

MPO TRIP!!

Hey again...Went for MPO trip...Malaysian Philharmonic Ochestra at KLCC!!! It was fun...so i started to take pictures...

Firstly, this picture is based on plastic tubes which are arrange in such a position...By starring at it makes me feel so dizzy...I wonder why is it there....


I guess from here you can stare at it...It makes you feel dizzy..Dont you feel it? hehe..

Somewhere outside KLCC main entrance....THere is this huge piece of art...Guess what are those material used to make those?...

Okay okay....Since you cant see it that well...

5 steps closer...Keep on guessing.....Get it?

If you miss it.....

5steps closer...GET IT NOW?!!!

WHAT?!!! NO??? (man ...blindnes...) haha...

5steps closer...Now you see it? pls tell me yes...haha..

Walking around...Nothing to eat....So I FOUND THIS!!!

MY "NATIONAL TREASURE" SUper BIg PIzza!!! WOOHOO!! haha

Watch it.....As its being eaten...

YUMMY!!!!.....( seriously ... it taste not as good as it looks..... looks can be deceiving...)

7.21pm 19 August 2008

I Wanna LIVE!!!

Heyo people,

Here is where I can tell my reason for being able to live up to nearly 2 months in isolation (in my hostel).....

No.1, Tea drinking for GOoD Health! (just making it up) hehe....

Look ... its only a BOX....



FILLED WITH 100 SACHETS!! HAHA...

No.2, Fruit drink, for a better health....... XD

No.3 A big "TONG" of biscuits...so called cheese crackers without cheese....

No.4 Snack time calls for NIPS!!! WOOHOO!!!!!....

No.5 What are these?...Well, I had this back to standard 3...Brings back memories.....

No.6, To stay awake.....Not a cup of coffee.....Its KOPIKO!!!

No.7 Some nice smell biscuits....thanks chong wei for gettting these for me...HAHA....

No.8 So-called good for health. Until today I am not too sure what kind of herbs that they use on this although its writen...Hrm...

No.9 WOW....HAHA....It was cheap so i got them all for RM 8 in one big packet....LOL

No. 10 Favourite of all time....NUTELLA!!! So nice that you can only eat it on its own....

No.11 For cooking purposes...

No. 12 Same goes here...for cooking purposes...

No.13 Essential for everyday's meal...RICE AND OATS AND MILK!! HAHA

No.14 Life source!!!!!!! WATER!!

No.15,...MANY MANY STUFFS....frozen food.....fish chicken...you name it...i have it...LOL...

No.16... Cheese....drinks.... whatever else....vege....cellery...bla bla bla...

No.17...Bla bla bla from top view...

No.18 More DRINKS!! milk.....fruit drinks...my gosh....

No.19...YAKULT!!! GOOD FOR HEALTH TOO!! HAHA...cheese...jam..bla bla bla.....

WOW! Man....Plentiful....GOD I AM THANKFUL!! I CAN SURVIVE...

Wait.. I mean.....

I WILL SURVIVE!!! WOOHOOO!!!

7.03pm 19 August 2008